I am in a bad place and need advice?

Move out get your own place, find a guy who can acustom to the way you are an will love you for you. When you do that, hopefully everything will be fine. move far far way from your family cuz they all ********* and find "prince charming." OH you could find out what your dad might do by telling him the full stroy with no holes word for word the way you did here. He might be of some help whether or not youre on drugs.